I didn’t want to blog this week due to important commitments. Recent events though, have conspired against me; thus, forcing my hand and better judgment to stop whatever I am doing at the moment and log in to my account.
I had wanted to update my blog entry only when I had enough time to finish the fearless astrological forecasts for the new Lunar year. I realized that instead of becoming a goal, it had become an impediment. Instead of finding time to sit down and blog about other sucky things in life, I couldn’t because I kept thinking that I had to finish that forecast first. As a result, I have a list of things to blog about, and the list has remained as such – a list.
That’s not the only list I have though, I also have another list. A long one. It’s called my list of problems. It’s not just a list anymore, it’s a log that’s constantly updated. Even when I am inundated with problems, I am still able to find time to muse. I guess when you reach a point where you’re clueless on what else to do, you just laugh at the problem and hope it would just disappear.
It’s a private log so I won’t be sharing any with you. I think you have enough of your own to worry about mine anyways.
Most problems are self-inflicted. They’re either a result of something you did or did not do in the past. The irony of problems is that hindsight is always the best teacher, so you always find it hard to anticipate them. Yet hindsight isn’t 20/20. We humans like to repeat the same mistakes in the past. If success is a habit, failure is human nature.
It’s really damned if you do, damned if you don’t. So the solution might actually be to let someone else figure it out.
I feel like I am way over my head here, and it’s a good thing I haven’t contemplated slitting my wrist or getting overdosed with some tranquilizing pills. I guess mental maturity is what separates people like me from people who cannot handle stress.
White hair have already begun sprouting all over my scalp but I treat them as battle scars. I don’t like them, but at least I’m still in the sane world.
Problems, much like (almost) everything in life, happens in a cycle. The problem with problems is that the cycle is almost always a vicious cycle. I have made my own chart to represent that. I have affectionately called it The Problem Schematic -
Thank you for the people who have and are still patiently reading my blog. I owe it to whoever you guys/gals are. ^)^ Back to my horrid reality….
